This is for someone who will never read this, maybe. Someone who will never realize that this is exist. Someone who’s been over me.
Someone I let him go to find his way back home himself.
My heart may be his, but his is never mine.
We just, no longer close. Too much circumstances that I’m sure none can stand it.
I just don’t know why, but sometimes it’s still hurt a little bit. Like a little part of me still want him.
Sometimes I forget that it was me who ended this up.
I feel like I’m a hypocrite-loser person who keep lying at myself that everything is fine.
No. I try. I always do.
But I often miss things that will never come back anymore.
I hope I could be a place you feel like you’re home.
Like where ever you’ve gone, you’ll always come back to me. Like you used to be.
I hope I was the one who can change you back to someone who have never lied to me. I hope with my existence on your side will make you realized what we used to be. And you’ll come back home.
But you never listened to me. You never give an eye to me.
I fail to make you change. Then I know that, you’ll never be you anymore.
It broke my heart so much.
I want you to know that I’m dying every second I keep going without you. Although you won’t know.
Your last words the last time you talked to me, hurt me badly.
Now I just, can feel nothing. Everything is gone along with you.
If he read this, I want you to know that: You were the only reason why I held on so long, until I decided to let go something that will never realize how hard I try to win his love.
And I don’t want to you to be angry at me. I just want you to forgive me. Just don’t hate me.
And, just be happy. With or without me. You’ll find someone better than me. Much better. Just like the one you’ve always wanted.
I know someday if God really meant us to be, you’ll understand why I did this.
I want you to change into someone better. I’ve tried to do my best. It’s just, maybe it is not my part to change you. Maybe it’s you to figure it out.
I maybe not as pretty as others, as fun as others. But I’m sure I’ll be the one who’s standing by your side when everybody is leaving. I promise you.
And I love you. It was an amazing 2 years and more together with you.
“Now I don’t know what to be without you around. … I can’t breathe without you but I have to.” -Breathe, Taylor Swift
“Maybe this is wishful thinking. Probably mindless dreaming. But if we loved again, I swear I’d love you right. I’d go back in time and change it, but I can’t. So if the chain is on your door, I understand.” -Back to December, Taylor Swift
“I wish nothing but the best for you. Don’t forget me, I begged. I remember you said: ‘Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes in hurts instead.’ ” -Someone Like You, Adele
